Really wish I could gain just a little more meat on me :{
Ok, yes, I know I'm skinny. But I'm not bulimic, nor anorexic, I don't have whatever eating disorder disease either. I'm totally tired of people telling me how skinny I am. Helloooo? I know! I've been living in this body for almost 20 years. I was a fat baby and then I grew into this small figure.
I'll be lying if I said I don't care what people think or say about me. Of course I care. Society is so cruel. "You're too thin, anorexic sicko!" or "You're too fat, disgusting pig!". Why should anyone be TOO fat or thin? I've been told that I look like a walking skeleton my whole life. "Cass, kurusan deh...". Apa sih, gue selalu kurus deh peraasan hhh.
So anyways, I've been trying to get fat since junior high school. I've been feeling so insecure of my body, really. I tried everything! Ate before bed, drank milk everyday, took various weight gain pills, vitamins, stopped smoking (it didn't work so I started again), I'm not on drugs at all, went to a nutritionist, and I even tried eating junk food everyday. I JUST CAN'T GET FAT.
Last night, I tried out the Appeton Weight Gain milk that my friend has been drinking for a while. Shit man, it tasted like, errr, like vomit. Can't drink it. Ugh, wait, I need to throw up.
I'll be lying if I said I don't care what people think or say about me. Of course I care. Society is so cruel. "You're too thin, anorexic sicko!" or "You're too fat, disgusting pig!". Why should anyone be TOO fat or thin? I've been told that I look like a walking skeleton my whole life. "Cass, kurusan deh...". Apa sih, gue selalu kurus deh peraasan hhh.
So anyways, I've been trying to get fat since junior high school. I've been feeling so insecure of my body, really. I tried everything! Ate before bed, drank milk everyday, took various weight gain pills, vitamins, stopped smoking (it didn't work so I started again), I'm not on drugs at all, went to a nutritionist, and I even tried eating junk food everyday. I JUST CAN'T GET FAT.
Last night, I tried out the Appeton Weight Gain milk that my friend has been drinking for a while. Shit man, it tasted like, errr, like vomit. Can't drink it. Ugh, wait, I need to throw up.
70 comments:
Hahaha sama dong, aku juga sering di bilang kaya tiang listrik! Huh iya palingan sirik
love your body no matter what.
manusia emang nggak pernah puas yah ;]
if in that thin body you feel healthy, then so what? you don't need to worry about that rite? :]
atleast you've never been mistaken for a 14 year old girl, have you?
i have this friend who was just as tiny as you are. one time she got on a plane and sat right next to the emergency exit. so the flight attendant came up to her and said, "i'm sorry miss but 14 year olds are not allowed in these seats. would you mind if i go find you another seat?"
and she goes, "excuse me, i'm 23"
hahaha! she really was 23, just really petite.
PETITE IS BEAUTIFULLL cass ;D
But do u know cassey? I know why u can't gain weight like any other ppl can. There is a reason to it, of course! Some ppl gain weight whenever they eat a lot, but some ppl can't gain even if they eat plenty! U're one of those ppl who won't get fat no matter how much u eat, bcoz of ur genes! Maybe nobody in ur family is overweight, and also bcoz of ur digestive systems could burn a lot of calories so well that they have no time to stock fat in ur body.
That's the fact, some overweight ladies might say u're lucky to have a slim figure, but I think it's not at all lucky, not only what other ppl say, but also coz of having blessed with this type of body genes, it gives u more freedom to eat unhealthy foods, we could be in danger if we eat carelessly, u're trying to put on weight but u'll just end up have something worse, u'know something like... living shorter than fat ppl do!... it's scary, so take care of ur eating habit, cass! Don't get wild idea to gain weight. Just be urself is the best...
Nath,
PS: Sorry to write too long!
i'm a disgusting pig and you're way too skinny -_- reality stinks, yeah. and also sucks.
and anyway.. i thought you quit smoking.
me tooooo kak!! but lucky me, I have skinny mate at school. jadi ga cm aku yg dikatain hahaha. kesel nambah berat lama bangeeet eh turunnya cepet banget -_-
trs aku udh coba weight gain jg. parah kak.. dr baunya aja udh buat mau muntah. but it works kok kak! tp krn ga tahan aku udahan. eh abs turun lagi.... haha
okeh.
6 kilo buat lo dari badan gw,
halal fat, sumpah.
Thank Cassey, for knowing all the facts already. I'm wordless and Vegarduel is on my side, so forget it! Let's enjoy ur happy meals. U still need 2,000 calories like everyone does...Take care!
Nath
xoxo,
cas sumpah sama banget dulu gue jg gendutttt mampus waktu bayi skrg ceking bgini knapa ya hahaha. seumur idup belom pernah nyentuh 40kg
wah, apa itu genetik ya cass? hehehe sometimes we need body peace :)
well, from the photos, i don't think that you're that thin..
your body is fine enough..
and stop drinking that weight gain if that makes you throw up after that..
just be happy girl :)
>Kimo Allegra
How do we achieve body peace?
>edhika
Hahaha yeah, I'm not going to drink it again I guess. It tastes much worse than I expected.
>Anonymous
Eee.. Iya pastinya xD
ngaruh kok kak. waktu itu aku naik 3kg deh kalo ga salah. tapi ya itu.... harus tahan dan kalo berhenti minum langsung turun lagi -_-
huaa aku malah pengen tau kak! sigh..
anyway, is it possible if you never get fat because of smoking?
hmm, i dont know, just another possibility, right? :)
But just love yourself, my body is too fat hahaha but it's okay. Whatever your size, just love it :D And stay health cass!
kurus nya u. once, i hope i'm as thin as you are. but now, i'm just grateful of my body. not too thin but not considered fat either. and u too, stop trying to gain weight cuz it won't work. thats how your body are and thats how you should accept it :)
sama banget kak sm masalah aku, aku dari kecil badannya udah kurus gitu, tinggi aku 160an tapi berat aku cuma 40. padahal tiap hari aku minum susu loh. tapi emang sih aku pola makannya gak teratur gitu, trus gampang kenyang. coba minum temulawak deh kak, aku dulu sempet nyobain, tapi aku gak doyan.katanya sih bisa nambah nafsu makan :)
Auehuehehe, yea i guess so ;p
Tapi pengen banget gemuk niiiih hu
kk "bakat kurus" tuh hehehe :D
org yg blg gitu biasanya susah kurus jd pengen kurus kyk kk alias sirik tanda tak mampu hahaha
Reality stinks >:|
me too! banyak bgt yg bilang kalo aku " tiang listrik " anorexia blabla.sirik aja kali ya hihi
oh Cassey, we're totally in same condition!!!
i'm small and thin too, people couldn't stop saying how thin I am :|
and i had tried milk, junk, pills, vitamins, and drunk that shitty Appeton Weight Gain, for few months and it still doesn't work grrr
cassey, aku juga ada few friends yg ada masalah mcm kamu.. kasihan deh kerna aku tau mereka tu paling byyykk makannyaa..tp tetap juga kurus gitu. sedangkan aku ni kurang makan, badan tetap juga gede! huhu. b'syukurlah dgn apa yg kite punya.. ;) rmmbr, love urself no matter wat people say.. XD
kak coba makan chocomarbles yg ada di blog ku deh yg banyak hihi siapa tau bs jadi gemuk :P
Hehehee bikinin dooooong :}
>sararocks
Hehehe iya pastinya, I love my body sih, just suka insecure aja kalo dibilangin kekurusan. Like again and again :(
>Karen Yaacob
Waha iya, aku juga makannya banyak, sedangkan temen-temen yang gemuk sibuk diet dan motong-motong jadwal makan. Ckckckck. Repot ya. Hahahaha. Realita oh realita ~_~
I feel the SAME cass! I've been having the same weight for years... but hey sometimes I smile when people are like "i'm soo fat, i wanna get skinny" I eat a lot, but i'm still thin :(
CASS, waaah, I know that those photos were your old stock s on dA, am I right? Because i always love yours, so I follow you.
btw, Cass, hahahaha, me too (although i'm not skinny and not petite), I can't get fat, but I must stay in size like now, because if I ate a lot of foods, the one and only one part that will 'grow' bigger is just my hip. omona, it's not okay for my jeans.
do you have some stretchmark, cass?
i have a lot because i was fat and then suddenly because of thypus 3 times in 2 years, i got more thin.
kalo kata orang tua sih, "Yang penting kamu sehat" hahahahaha lol
Hahahaha amin deh kalo kaya Agyness Deyn :}
kak!! jangan.. udah, bagus segitu aja badannya!! aku malah pengen kurus kayak kakak!! udah jngn gemuk gemuk.. badan kakak keren kayak agynnes deyn <3
Ahahahah omg that's terrible but hilarious. Well, when I was younger I got mistaken for a much younger age. But not anymore :P
Being petite does give advantages, one of them is looking younger haha!
Hmm maybe you should try to eat fast food like McDonalds for instance everyday, on breakfast lunch and dinner too. Because I heard that it works, in a week you'll gain more weight but of course its really unhealthy haha :)
hi there :)
i found your blog via tiny little fingers (shila)
so this is the cool girl who's familiar with hash brownie :D
i loveee your blog cassey!
it's really cool! i'll follow you asap :)
mungkin ka cassey emang gen nya kurus jadi mau gimana tetep kurus hehe, enak bangeeet ka kalo kayak gitu! Aku gampang banget naik berat badan trus mau diet juga ga bisa hahhaa
>Kanira Supono
Hehehehe iya nih, keturunan sih udah jelas. Everyone in my family is skinny, tapi pas tua jadi gendut mendadak! Agak serem juga ya, tapi jadi ga sabar tua kalo emang bener-bener cuman pas tua aja bisa gemuk xD
Jangan diet berlebihan ya, my aunt died because of obsessive dieting
>Shila Ghaisani
Omg shila, I swear I've tried that before!!!! But instead of getting me fat, it made nauseous and green. Hahahaha anything that is too much really isn't good. Hmm but I could really use a burger now, I'm hungreeeh
>Aditya Tirtakusuma
Hahahaha INDEED ;))
>Nathary
Yes that's what my nutritionist said! But I avoided her comments, and hoped I could still get fat. But it looks like zero chances. And you're true, being unable to gain weight doesn't exactly mean "horray I'm thin for a life-time, I can eat whatever I want" but I still need time to really understand that, I'm still having a very unhealthy diet, heheheh. But I'm trying my best to take care of body.
Thanks Nath, I promise I won't go wild on my eating habits :)
>Lidwina Grata
Hahaha yes! I forgot it's name so I said marijuana brownie instead. Oh yum, it's been ages since I last had them! Best best snack ever hihi xD
Thank you for the love! Please do keep in touch!
>Andra
Hahaha yeah, me too. I truly hate saying something negative about people physical appearances, but sometimes when I feel insecure, I'd put the hugest smile on my face and eat lots of Mc Donald's in front of my diet psycho friends. LOL
>Sheyka
Hehehe yes! I got so bored I retouched them again. And anyways, lots of my new followers haven't seen any of them yet I'm sure hihi. And I'm missing my long black hair too haha :}
Oh yes! Me too! The only body part that grows on me is my hips. I feel annoyed sometimes, why not my boobs or something else hahahaha. Ugh yea, I have some stretch marks on my thighs, it sucks -_-
What Nathary said is true. It's your genes and it's not something you can help. I saw this documentary, it was about dieting. People who were naturally fat, just like you are naturally thin, tried to lose weight but it's extremely hard. So the only way to do it was to always stay hungry because their "natural body" would always be fat. Therefore it would always go back, unless they always stayed hungry.
Among the test persons were also thin people. They were trying to gain weight, so they ate excessively for 3 months or something. And they did gain weight, but they also said they nearly vomited every time they ate. And just a month or so after the experiment the body had found its natural size again by itself.
I'm sorry if this disappoints you but that's the fact. People are different quite frankly. But on another hand your figure suits being thin, in my opinion. If you were wider or taller it might look weird, but you're not. Talking proportionally you're not really much different from any other. Except for Americans, they're obese 8D
So again, what Nathary said, just be yourself. Because honestly, Cassey, you look good! And I'm not really the type of person who just throw those kind of words around. So I mean it!
omg cass, once again we're in the same condition! =p
waktu pulang ke jakarta kmaren, nyokap, tante2 semua pada heboh bilang gue kuruuuuussss banget, pada ngira gue diet, kecapekan, stress final, dll
padahal enggakloh, gue makan seperti biasa. dan di jakarta gue makan buanyaaaaaakkkkk banget ga ngerti lagi deh. sebelom pulang berat gue cuma 39 kg, pas nyampe sini lagi gue dengan semangat nimbang dengan harapan gue nambah seenggaknya 2-3 kg. taunya berat gue cuman 40kg. huaaaaa ga tau lagi mesti ngapain, i really have to gain weight before my "huge" bf coming back! =p
gue keliatan keciiiiiil banget di sebelah dia yg tinggi dan besar. bisa dikira bapak-anak. hehe
goodluck loh cass nambah beratnya, kalo dah berhasil ajarin ya haha
just linked and follow your blog dear :)
you just look like citra (old friend) in those photos. well, as long as you feel healthy, skinny didn't look so bad :)
Me too! I've tried everything to gain weight but nothing seems to work. I really,truly,badly need to gain weight :(
i think it's just a genetic problem cass. don't worry. it's not a crime being skinny. no one will got you on jail because of that. hahaha. lol.
just eat, eat and eat. as long as we were still young and healthy. hahaha. life for eat or eat for life? you choose!
>Ty
Haha, yeah I thought I've quit too, however I couldn't help it, started again 8D
>vegarduel
Now that's a documentary I'd really like to watch. To be frank, I am disappointed a bit, if really, I would never grow a little bigger. But of course, I'd still love myself for who I am.
Thank for such a thoughtful comment, you really made me blush and smiled as if there's a clothes hanger in my mouth :}
>Nisa Puspasari
Beneran ngaruh? Yakin? Uuuhu rasanya nggak enaaaak, aku mau coba lagi sih kalo udah bisa nahan eneg -_-
>acilalala
Huhuhu senasib ya. Tapi you're still more lucky, berat gw cuman 37kg, dalam badan setinggi 156cm. Kalo nanti berhasil mencapai 45kg, pasti di post ke blog! :D
>Lidwina Grata
Yayyness, thank you loads <3
>Chitra
YES PLEASE
>Nathary
Of course, I'm skinny but not stupid. LOL. Hahaha. I'm trying my best to love the way my body is :D
>Dea
Really wished there was an easier way huh? x(
>rizky maretha
Hahahaa I don't know which to choose! I really wish it has nothing to do with genetics, but I can't help it, I do come from a tiny-small-people family
>allieallen
Citra? Is she your friend? Hehehe. Well I'm guessing she's hot. Hahaha. Just kidding :p
>Cabe
HUUUU bete ga sih be, pengen lho gemukan dikit. Gw paling berat 41kg, dan itu waktu smp. Pengen lagi aaaaa
yg penting sehat.
Wah! That actually sounds like a good idea! Bener juga ya, waaaaah mau ah mulai-mulai rajin angkat barbel aheueahhue. Thanks! Naik 2kg udah bagus, daripada berkurang 2kg ;p
Hey,,we have tha same problem,,yang pernah gw baca dan gw praktekan *and it works* rajin2 olahraga angkat beban deh,,serius,,soalnya tipe2 badan kya qta emg susah naikin berat pke makanan *which means 'lemak'* jadi kalo mau gendutin badan,,besarin di otot,
dulu gw minum susu 3-4 gelas sehari trs olahraga angkat barbel,pokoknya yang orientasinya ke otot,,2 bulan berat gw naik 2kg *hehe,,dikit c,,tapi mendingan*,, soalnya badan gw leih kenceng,,plus,,dipuji pacar "iihh,,badan kmu koq lebih berisi ya skrg,,bagus2,,kya gini donk" hehe,,try it,cass
haha iya lo kurus banget yah, gue aja ga nyampe deh tinggi 150cm =p
berat gue naik turun aja diantara 39-40kg. yah masih mending kalo bisa gendutin di boobs or butts hehe ini malah ke lengan atau perut =(
well Cass, everybody wants to be skinny at the end :P
tiny little small family? hahaha. just like your mom cass,langsing :P
Yeaaap :}
skinny??
pingiiiiin...
hahahaha.. bersyukur aja sama yang udah kita punya kali ya..
>Nisa Puspasari
Hmm gitu ya, maybe I should keep trying?
>acilalala
Banget! Makanya kesel deh, kalo kekurusan kan jelek huuu -_-
>Janit
Hahahaha, well not in my case, I don't :}
>dela
Uuuuh, sulit ya sometimes, we just can get everything we want. So yeah, our only option is harus bersyukur aja :D
>Putri Erdisa
Hehehe yeah, bisa jadi. Tapi emang dari kecil aku kurus sih sebenernya, merokok gak merokok, aku selalu kurus. Jadi yaaah, udah nasib kayanya hahaha :p
>Anonymous
Hehe yeaa, I guess so :p
justru asik dong bisa makan apapun without worrying too much ;)
don't push it. it's prolly in your genes. :)
aku juga samaaaa, malah dulu sempet dikasih obat cacing krn disangka cacingan trus dibikinin program makanan bergizi gitu sama tetanggaku yg ahli gizi, hahaha. hasilnyaaaa cuma gemuk dipantat sama pipi doang. haha!
>xanabioticx
I'm pretty sure it is -_-
>Tara
Hahahaha duh ketawa lho asli, obat cacing! Hahaha!
>Mom
Tapi pengen gemuk mom :|
>Aditya Tirtakusuma
Hehehehe well yea, I'm trying to learn to accept my skinny figure
you can't get fat? neither can i. just accept it :-p you'll be happy about it when you get to my age..
being skinny is not that bad, instead so many girls in this world wanna have a body like you. as long as you're healthy it's soooooooo fine :)
aku link blog mu yah hehe.
makan yang pedespedes ajaa, makin pedes makin pingin nambah makan!! :D
You're the sweetest, thank you very much Mayang :}
P.S : Followed you okay! Cool blogg!
Really love those photos! You're so awesome, as a photographer and model! Multi-talented! xD
jangan ngerokok makanya kak casseyy... :(
every single day.. kata "kurus banget" itu ada aja yang bilang huhu
sehat sehat yang penting sehat ya cassey ^^
>rara emiria
Well, I'm just human. Those who want a body like me should know that I'd like to have a body like theirs. Huh, ga doyan pedes! Hahahaha
>hanim banim
Yeah, you're right. I'm trying to make myself feel much better now after talking to all of you, and reading beautiful comments such as yours. Thank you
>Anonymous
I'm sorry, dicoba unuk berhenti pelan-pelan kok :)
>tresdivine
Hehehehe hello Joe :)
Yeah gw juga sering dikira masih smp karena nggak cuman kurus juga pendek :P Kadang-kadang seru sih tapi. "Hah? SMP? Udah mau 20 nih umur gueeee!!!"
>nyala
Amin, diusahakan untuk selalu sehat :D
ahoy,
gue juga super kurus padahal waktu bayo tuh gembil. sedihnya gue pendek, jadinya org2 pada kirain gw masih smp... padahal...
blogwalking,
joe
Waaa betul-betul senasib, tapi aku cuman 155cm dengan berat cuman 36 @_@
Aku juga rajin minum susu, sebel ya, cuman mitos aja tuh ternyata hahaha. Hmm, temulawak doesn't sound good, but I'll try to...err.. nevermind deh ahahah
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